Now here is where rebellion comes in. We fight against all rules and regulations and, in my case, you stay out later than usual and behave like I never usually do, even if it just for one night.
I do not consider myself a "party animal", but those who know me know I'm slightly insane at times. I can dance on a whim, I can rock my body when nobody's looking and I can drive guys crazy if I really try. But this isn't the me everyone knows. It's a part of me I prefer to keep locked away.
I have tasted the freedom of letting go, being insane, not caring what anyone thinks and then falling back to earth: thinking what the???
Sometimes I wish I could just let go, be both, two sides of the same coin. But I am scared. I do not like the other me that much. I don't know her. The shy me can only be care free for so long. And it's not an act. It's not fake. I just can't be both.
Animal me takes a back seat to proper me with doses of crazy now and again. Perhaps it's better this way.
